Home study, take 2

Just came upstairs from finishing our first home study visit for adoption number two.

It's funny how things are so different the second time around. So much less intimidating. It brings me back to our first home study experience two years ago.

Here's a glimpse if you missed it:

Genilson chuckled at me as I paced the house about 30 minutes before our social worker arrived - setting the tea out, changing my hair, asking him to change his shirt (ok, perhaps he didn't chuckle at that one)... cleaning the toilet... and then low and behold, our social worker arrives. I offer tea, coffee, muffins?... and she politely declines saying it's sweet, but not necessary. Two hours go by, and she doesn't use the bathroom either (Did I really think she'd be impressed by my super clean sink and extra hand towels anyway?). (Blessed to Adopt, 26 Nov. 2009)

Ha. Clearly, we had no idea what to expect. I distinctly remember taking up almost the entire day preparing for that first visit. As excited and anxious first time parents, the adoption and home study process consumed us.

This time around is a bit different. Obviously we now have Ezra, and we are in Cambodia living in a different house. We may have a different social worker, but we know that the home study process is not about appearances or how perfectly clean your house is. With our agency it's been much more about working together to assess our preparedness to care for a new child in our home than about a "test" to see whether we are "fit" for parenthood. How do you feel about the adoption? What are your hopes and dreams for the future? How has parenting differed from what you originally expected? What kind of life do you imagine for your family 5, 10 years from now?

Many people have told me that "having a baby" the second time around is different than the first time. Initially, I'm not sure I understood what people meant. Why would it be different? It doesn't seem fair that parents should be more excited about their first child than their second child. But even through my very early experiences of preparing for our second adoption, I am beginning to see what people mean.

As first time parents we were dreamers. We "themed" and prepared the nursery months ahead of time. I spent hours researching baby gear online and reading What to Expect type blogs and books. I may not have been physically pregnant, but I definitely "nested" and was obsessed with preparing our home as best I could.

This time I have barely thought about the baby's room, much less the baby gear or baby clothes. First of all, with a toddler in the house I'm not sure when I would have the time to do that. I see now that this doesn't mean I don't "care" as much about our second child, it's just a different stage of life.

Before we had Ezra I didn't fully know what to expect or what I would need, so my way of getting ready was to prepare myself with material knowledge - baby books, trends, baby gear, nursery theme, etc. (and there's nothing wrong with that - it was all I knew to do). Through my initial parenting experience, however, I have come to realize that while the book knowledge and gear may be helpful (and fun), when your baby comes it all kind of blurs into the background. Not just because you're sleep deprived and exhausted, but also because you realize it's the baby that you were waiting for, and not necessarily the stuff.

When I look at pictures of Ezra as a small newborn I can't believe how quickly this stage of his life went by. As a new mom I was always thinking about the next stage without truly appreciating the current one. So I'd like to think that even though our second baby may not get the same amount of preliminary nesting and anticipation, what they will get is a mother who is seeking to savor and appreciate each day, each week, each month of their early life.

I look forward to continuing the journey.

 

Dollars + Cents

It's the question lots want to ask but perhaps it's just too nosy or awkward. "Exactly how much does adoption cost?"... and quite possibly, "How are you guys affording this?" It's no secret that Genilson and I are not incredibly wealthy. Doing ministry or working for a small non-profit isn't exactly something you do for the money.

The expenses of adoption are complicated. It's illegal to buy a human being for any reason (she says, the director of an anti-human trafficking organization), including for adoption. At the same time, however, there are expenses that go along with what's involved in the adoption process: the home study, criminal background checks, adoption education, travel, legal fees, facilitation services, administrative expenses, health care expenses (for the baby and birth mother), and the list goes on and on... not to mention that once your baby arrives you have the same expenses any new parents would have!

The numbers vary according to who you ask, but adoption expenses in the United States vary from $0 (Fost-Adopt) to $20,000 (average for private agency adoption), to over $40,000 (usually independent adoption). For the breakdown of one survey, look here.

When deciding on what adoption agency we were going to work with, the expenses were confusing. Some agencies charged over $20,000 for their services alone (not including travel, legal, etc.) while others charged under $10,000.

Our choice to go with Pact had to do with several factors, but one major determining factor was its sliding fee scale, based on the adoptive parents' income. We knew we wanted an agency that approached the financial issue with integrity, and with the guarantee that money was not their motive for arranging adoptions, the sole determining factor in "how fast" a baby would come, or the "kind" of baby we were going to get (yes, that happens).

The good news about adoption expenses is the IRS offers an adoption tax credit of up to about $12,500. Frankly, without this credit, I'm not sure we could afford any of this. There are also several adoption grants, usually based on need, that adoptive parents can apply for if they need additional financial assistance. We decided to apply for three grants that seemed promising for our particular situation.

So... in conclusion, yes, adoption is pretty pricey. Our adoption will probably be between $13,000 and $18,000. But there's hope, it's doable, and we believe it all to be worth it. x

The Waiting Room

Well, the wait is here... officially (though I guess we've been "waiting" in some capacity all along).

This morning we had our final "preliminary chat" with Beth over at Pact... basically the last conversation before the official "wait" was to begin.

It was exciting and intimidating all at the same time when the call was coming to a close and Beth told us we are now officially "out there" ... waiting for a potential match. The wait could be a day, a month, or several months, maybe even a year. Regardless of how long, we are officially "waiting"... waiting to be found... waiting for the "call"... waiting to be matched... waiting to be parents... and bringing our baby home is just around the corner.

So how does it all work? Our profile (see last post), which has been translated into English and Spanish, has been sent over to Pact who will present it to expectant parents looking into adoption. When expectant parents choose us as their first choice, Pact will give us a call, present information on the birth family, and give us some time to think it over. If we feel it's a good match for us, Pact will help us connect with the expectant parents (whether by phone, or with a visit if they are close by, etc.). Sometimes, we might get a call about a baby that is due within 24 hours, or has already been born.

From there, the process could follow several different journeys depending on the particular situation of the birth parents, their location, and how far along they are in their pregnancy. So more on that when it actually happens.

It's all very exciting. It's one step closer... a very significant step closer. We are thrilled, nervous and overwhelmed all at the same time. The waiting period could very well last a long time (or at least what feels to be a very long time), so it's a challenge to balance being excited with knowing we will need to have patience... but it's a challenge we're excited to be facing. Keep us in your prayers as we wait!

Yay!
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3 Home Study Visits... Check

That's right! Monday evening was our third and final home study visit with our social worker, R. Our visits have been really great. We've enjoyed getting to know R and telling her about our "story" (after all, who doesn't enjoy talking about themselves?), and it's also been a good opportunity to think about and discuss some of the "tough" questions (such as whether we are "open" to a baby that was exposed to drugs or alcohol during the mother's pregnancy, and what kind of "parenting techniques" we are planning on using, etc).

I have to say the entire process has been rather enlightening, and not at all what I had expected. I originally thought the visits would be somewhat awkward and stressful, especially the "walk through" inspection of the house. I also thought we would constantly feel we were "on display" having to almost "convince" the agency that we were "fit" to be parents. But it wasn't like that at all. Instead, it was just like telling a new friend a bit about where growing up, our marriage, hopes and dreams, and whatever else happened to come up. If anything, it felt like therapy - in a good way, like processing where you come from and why you are the way you are. The "walk through" is really just to check that your home is safe, not perfect. The only difference is really that there is a report (not as scary as it sounds) at the end that outlines our lives, and that the agency is in agreement that adoption is a good plan for us (also not as scary as it sounds).

So, anyway, all that to say, the process was great. We're only glad it's "over" in the sense that it means we are one step closer to baby. (!!)

With the visits now under our belts, R will work on putting together a home study report on all of the information she gathered during the visit. A draft will be sent to us to ensure all of the information is correct, we will sign and return it, and then a final copy will be sent to Pact (and eventually the state). I was expecting the whole home study process would take some time, but so far it's been actually going pretty quickly.

We're also working on getting our final draft together of the profile... hope to have some screenshots up over the next week or so.

Thanks for reading, and Merry Christmas!

It's Getting Closer

Had our second of three home study visits last night... it's incredible to think about how fast the process is moving along! We did a bit better this time at being relaxed. I still cleaned the house, but just not as much as last time.

This visit was a big different than last time. Half of the visit was with Genilson, half of the visit was with me (Tania). We talked about our childhoods, growing up, families, etc. It was almost like therapy, but definitely in a good way. :)

R will give us a call early next week to schedule our third and final visit... looks like we'll probably be done with the study by the new year! This last visit will focus on our views of parenthood, discipline, and child rearing practices... something we obviously have no experience doing, so it should make for an interesting conversation. R is great - we really have enjoyed our visits with her.

In the meantime, we're going to be working on getting our "profile" together... kind of challenging considering we want to show expectant parents who we are in a matter of only a couple pages!!

Thanks for following along...

1 Down, 2 to Go

Just finished our first home study appointment.

"What's a home study again?"

All states require prospective adoptive parents to participate in a "home study" prior to being approved to adopt. The process has three objectives:
1) To help educate and prepare families wanting to adopt;
2) To gather information on the adoptive family that will help the social worker match the family with the right birth family and/or child;
3) To evaluate whether a family is "fit" to take care of a new child.

The last objective is perhaps the most intimidating... how can anyone decide whether you are "fit" to parent? What if...? I think we all know deep down whether or not we will be "fit" - or perhaps better phrased - good parents. "Good" parents certainly does not equate "perfect" parents. After all, who's perfect? Do perfect parents even exist? Rest assured, as soon as we started chatting with our social worker this evening, it was clear right away that we weren't expected to be perfect... just human, and prepared for the challenges of parenting.

Contrary to what many people assume, the home study process isn't entirely about doing a "home inspection" (think Friends when Monica is frantically cleaning the apartment before their their home study even more than she usually does... if that's even possible). While the final visit does include a sort of "inspection" to ensure that the house is safe and suitable for a growing child, it's actually more about building a solid relationship with an adoptive family so their social worker can make solid recommendations regarding whether they should be able to adopt a child, and what would make a good match.

I have to admit, however, that no matter how many times people told us this - that the house didn't need to be perfect, and that it's not about how clean the house is, but more about the interviews - I couldn't help but go a little bit out of my way this afternoon to clean the house a little more than usual, give the dog a bath... oh... and make pumpkin muffins (something I never do). Genilson chuckled at me as I paced the house about 30 minutes before our social worker arrived - setting the tea out, changing my hair, asking him to change his shirt (ok, perhaps he didn't chuckle at that one)... cleaning the toilet... and then low and behold, our social worker arrives, I offer tea, coffee, muffins?... and she politely declines saying it's sweet, but not necessary. Two hours go by, and she doesn't use the bathroom either (Did I really think she'd be impressed by my super clean sink and extra hand towels anyway?)...

Oh well... the meeting went smoothly, and that's what's important. :)

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Happy + Healthy

Today we headed to Kaiser for our 'adoption physicals'. Having your physician fill out mounds of paperwork on your medical history is just another part of the long adoption process... great thing is it brings us one step closer to becoming parents. :)

We just got back from Cambodia on Friday - where it was super hot - so it's been difficult to readjust back to the cold weather of NorCal. The doctor chuckled a bit at Genilson as she was examining him - Genilson had been so cold this morning before going to the doctor that he had put on thermals under his jeans, which he then tucked into some heavy duty socks with heavy boots on... he had so much on that the doctor couldn't find his ankles to take his pulse! Genilson responded to the doctor's giggles with "I'm from Brazil!"

Being in Cambodia over the past few weeks was great... it really gave us a chance to reconnect with friends, practice some good 'ole Khmer, and best of all, re-imagine what it will be like to return to Cambodia... this time as parents. Definitely a great trip...

Today we got the chance to speak with our assigned home study social worker - who we will call "R" (for privacy's sake) - and we have our first home study visit this Wednesday! Eek! So exciting! Now we will have "news" to share with the fam on Thanksgiving... (at least about how the first visit went). We're super excited to be able to get going on these visits so soon... this will be the first of three visits all together...

Thanks so much for all of your support -
We love you,

Fingerprints... Check!

Today we drove out to Sacramento to get our "Live Scan" fingerprints done. Whenever I (Tania) get fingerprinted I find it so fascinating... maybe I'm a geek, I don't know... but the way that everyone's fingerprint patterns are so unique that there's no possibility of an exact match with someone else, and how technology can track is just amazing! It's crazy how a bunch of squiggly lines on your finger can be so significant to our criminal justice system.

Fingerprinting is part of the home study process. Potential adoptive parents are checked for a criminal background through both the FBI and Department of Justice databases. Interestingly, an international check isn't required, even though we've lived overseas. Though we don't have anything to "find" through an international check, it's a little disturbing that they don't require one... don't you think they would want to check out people who have lived overseas for long periods of time to see what they were up to?? Hmm... hopefully that comes together soon and gets into the requirements somehow.

Here's a snapshot of our "fingers" at the fingerprint office. :)
We're off to Cambodia on Sunday!